Tonikia's Story

 

I have always believed in the Lord as long as I could remember.  I always felt a special connection to Him.  I thought I was different.  A time came when instead of standing out I though it was important to fit in.  Instead of being a leader, I became a follower.  In my heart, I was convicted, but I did not know what to do.  I wanted to belong and to be loved.  I wanted to be noticed, but no matter what I did, I couldn't find that feeling of completeness. 

Things changed for me when I started working for a guy who was severely hurt in a diving accident.  He was a quadriplegic.  When I started taking care of this man, one of my jobs was to read the Bible to him.  I was 19 years old, and for the first time in my life, I felt loved and a sense of belonging as I read the Bible.  I began to feel like I fit in as I read more of the Bible, the Word.  As I read the Word, I started to realize who I was in God's eyes, and most importantly, who He was to me.   It was at this time, that I made a decision to believe in God. 

During my search for truth and for God, I asked myself some questions: If I die today, how will I be remembered?  What kind of mark would I leave and how would people remember me?  What would people have to say about me?    It was at this time, that I decided to give all of myself to the one who loved me first.  Ecclesiastes 7:1 states a good name is better than precious ointment, and the of death than the day of one's birth. 

I want to be known as a child of God and I choose to live my life for Christ.    

By Tonikia Steans

Northeastern Indiana District Church of the Nazarene

1950 S. 350 Main

Marion, IN  46953    (765) 664-8950

Cheryl Roland, District Women's Ministries Director

Email:  cdroland@neinazarene.org