My name is Lori Miller, and I am the secretary at Ossian Nazarene Church, Ossian, IN. I work 3 mornings a week doing the bulletins, and whatever else needs done. I am 46, married to Bob Miller (not that Bob Miller), and I have two beautiful children, Taylor Osborn, 15, and Jensen Miller, 9. I am a member of OCN, and started attending here in 2008. I am currently on the church board, and am the NYI president, teach Children's church and Kidz Klub on Wednesday evenings.
I agreed, almost a year ago, to write down my testimony. I, along with all the above, also suffer from terrible anxiety, and the thought of actually writing this and sending it off, has had me covered in hives for a year!
I was brought up in central New York and saved at Open Door Baptist Church, Sheds, NY, when I was 10. I was taken to church weekly, knew all the books of the bible, could recite scripture all day, but I never really EXPERIENCED God in my life. I knew, intellectually, that Jesus was my Savior, that the ONE way to heaven was through being saved, but I never had a relationship with Jesus.
I got married to Bob in 2004, I am an LPN, and had 2 full time jobs. Bob is a paramedic and also had 2 full time jobs. We had one child at that time, and WE WERE MAKING MONEY!! I allowed my daughter, 3, to go to church anytime anyone invited her. I prayed when things looked bad. I thought, yeah, I'm a Christian. I'm saved. My path is clear.
I was also filled with YEARS of hurt and anger from what I considered a hard childhood. My sister had once, for real, wished me dead. We were not a nice family.
In 2006 I lost one of my 2 jobs, I was diagnosed with diabetes, and Bob lost one of his jobs. We started to work harder, we were now on half of our income! Then, I got pregnant, high risk because of being over 35 and having diabetes. Then I lost my other job. Then Bob lost his other job. He got a new job, and new insurance.
In 2007 my son was born at 33 weeks. He was in the Lutheran Children's Hospital NICU for 21 days. He had pulmonary hypertension, low blood sugar, low O2 levels, and 2 holes in his heart. His heart was treated with medication which closed the holes in his heart, but had trouble breathing for a LONG time. He didn't walk until he was 20 months, and didn't talk until well into his second year. I focused all my energy on Jensen, ignoring my own health.
In 2009 I had an attack of acute pancreatitis, and was hospitalized. I was in Med-Surg ICU, my blood sugar was out of control, all my labs were bad. I, as a nurse, kept thinking "Oh, Dr. ___________ is on the case now, they'll figure out what's going on". Several days, and many doctors later, as I was at this point in CardioVascular ICU, had an episode on my EKG that led doctors to believe I was having a heart attack. My cardiac labs, my EKG, and my general demeanor all pointed that way. My electrolytes were so bad that I had trouble thinking straight!
As I lay on that bed, thinking "who will take my children to church?" pr again, "if only Dr. ______________ was here", I clearly heard the voice of God say to me, "Lori, really?".
I actually, alone in the room, turned my head to see who was at the door. I burst into tears, and wept for quite a while. I knew My Jesus had come to see my in my darkest hour, because I had not fully learned to go to Him! I was healed in that moment, physically and spiritually!
I had a heart cath 2 days later, which showed nothing. I was released about a week later, and started my recovery.
We had been to OCN about 5 times, off and on, before I got sick. I was "planning", to return there, "when I got better". About a week later, Avis Hulvey came knocking on my door. :)
The rest, as they say, is history. I credit Jesus with returning my faith to me, and restoring my health, but I credit Avis Hulvey for physically getting me back to church!
Since then, my husband and I have recommitted to Christ, become members; my children are saved; and my son and I have been baptized.
There are now Sundays where many of my nieces and nephews and their children fill our pews, and my heart weeps for joy!
Thank you, Jesus, Great Healer, for coming to me, for healing me, restoring my faith, and for Your influence as I am still growing.
By Lori Miller, Ossian Church of the Nazarene